bunnyman666 Posted April 8, 2019 Share Posted April 8, 2019 Yes- I signed in and answered about Factory Mad, so it is time to do an update. I kinda had a few mental health issues mainly from trying to figure out my place. I am not quite the grizzled veteran of playing goal or hockey, for that matter. Yes- I played hockey as a youth, advanced to Juniors, then got an injury and took 25 years off. I got my competitive rocks off from cycling and duathlon, was a recording musician for a spell, then returned to hockey 8 years ago. But I did what I wanted WHEN I wanted, which was threatened by Ulcerative Colitis. The past year and a half really tested that, as I figured out that I TRULY loved playing goal and THAT was in jeopardy. The confidence lost from a very messy colostomy transferred to many places in my life, including how I behaved online. I took things too far and too personally. A light in my life came when after four months, I finally got the pouching down where I was confident enough to play hockey once again. Of course scheduling got in the way. And I STILL had confidence issues due to some struggles with pouching. I did play hockey two weeks before my last surgery, which was a huge mental victory for me. I had my (hopefully) last surgery to close the loop ileostomy last Tuesday (2 April 2019). I am in for a LONG road ahead until I have the confidence that I can play hockey, but have faith that in typical bunnyman fashion, I WILL be regularly playing once again. I do not expect to be welcomed with open arms. During my snit, I burned a few bridges. I am still a work in progress. I will be contributing a bit more IF the moderators are keen, but I am keeping my behaviour in check. If anyone wants to take a peek into my life as an Ulcerative Colitis survivor, you can do so by following my Instagram @goalieostomate . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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